We lost our daughter in march of 08 and I've done a lot of personal healing since then. All I want now is to move on and know she will always be our first but I miss motherhood more than anything and I would really like to have that feeling of dependancy again. A little life that needs me... and for the life of me I can not get pregnant. My husband and I have tried everything! Friends keep telling me "Oh... it'll happen in 'time'"... "time" gives us seconds, minutes... hours days and months but as far as I'm concerned it doesn't give us babies! I'm so sick and tired of hearing "it will happen when the time is right" because (as much as I hate to say it) Alexus was one hell of a suprise but the moment I saw her little heart beat at 6 weeks along I knew that I had to be the best damn mother I could be to her, I knew that!... In saying that the time wasn't "right" for her but I accepted my pregnancy with open arms and embraced my tight 21 year old figure turning into a womans body and I loved every moment of it! But now... Now that I am not 1/2 way through an aprenticship and now that I've already got a mommy tummy and streach marks I can't seem to get pregnant again... motherhood is like heroin, it's addictive and I want that feeling back SO badly!

Is anyone else going through this because I'm more than frustrated and I would do anything for some words of wisdom and PLEASE... PLEASE don't tell me "it will happen in time" and "when it's meant to be it will happen" and PLEASE... I beg you... don't tell me "not to worry about it because my body will know" ... this is a very... very frustrating time for me and I am damn well about to give up!